About money
I'm not great with money. I'm quite bad at money.
But I need to remember that I'm alright. I don't really need anything more in life, it's all wants. I've been wanting a computer, or a switch, or a playstation, but do I need that? If I decide I need that, I will save up for it. But I will NOT spend my savings on it. It's not the worth the stress that comes after.
I just did a payment on my loans, which is why I'm thinking about such things this morning. I was able to pay, the next one is in 3 months. As long as I can pay, everything is fine, isn't it? It was my choice to take out the loan, now it's my responsibility to pay it back.
My partner offered to help out. If I'm ever in dire need, of course I won't say no to that help. However, there is a certain pride in being able to do it myself. It's the normal and right thing to do.
The issue comes with normal, every day expenses. For example, my once a week yoga class. It's not expensive, and it's so good for my mental health. I'd really like to be able to continue going. But maybe I have to compromise with myself, for example, sign up for classes every other month instead of every month.
Ah, thinking about money makes me so unhappy. My job is unstable and has slowed down this month due to the virus outbreak. I should really look for a different job, shouldn't I...
Why is there such a huge mental block when I need to do things like that. I truly am a useless adult at times, and I don't really know why I turned out that way. I mean, my parents are great adults. Then again they had kids at a young age and were forced to be good about all that stuff.
I should reflect on how to be more responsible and how to overcome that stupid mental block. Else I'll always be stuck in life.
But I need to remember that I'm alright. I don't really need anything more in life, it's all wants. I've been wanting a computer, or a switch, or a playstation, but do I need that? If I decide I need that, I will save up for it. But I will NOT spend my savings on it. It's not the worth the stress that comes after.
I just did a payment on my loans, which is why I'm thinking about such things this morning. I was able to pay, the next one is in 3 months. As long as I can pay, everything is fine, isn't it? It was my choice to take out the loan, now it's my responsibility to pay it back.
My partner offered to help out. If I'm ever in dire need, of course I won't say no to that help. However, there is a certain pride in being able to do it myself. It's the normal and right thing to do.
The issue comes with normal, every day expenses. For example, my once a week yoga class. It's not expensive, and it's so good for my mental health. I'd really like to be able to continue going. But maybe I have to compromise with myself, for example, sign up for classes every other month instead of every month.
Ah, thinking about money makes me so unhappy. My job is unstable and has slowed down this month due to the virus outbreak. I should really look for a different job, shouldn't I...
Why is there such a huge mental block when I need to do things like that. I truly am a useless adult at times, and I don't really know why I turned out that way. I mean, my parents are great adults. Then again they had kids at a young age and were forced to be good about all that stuff.
I should reflect on how to be more responsible and how to overcome that stupid mental block. Else I'll always be stuck in life.
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